Traveling

well i'm off to travel agin. first to Vancouver to visit some friends i haven't seen in years WHEEEEEE!!! and second to go to glasgow for Grad. So yuppu i graduated WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
so yeah i'll be back Nov 6th or something but i prolly won't be posting in btwn now and then. but who knows

later days
n

LOL

"annonymous" comments gotta love em ;)
No worries, tickets booked to glasgow for grad, gotta hostel booked too. W00T!!
and who can forget i found out today that i actually Graduated
So congrats to me i now have a Masters of Science in Forensic Science.
So i'm flying out on the 29th and get back on the 6th. too fun.
now to email said annonymous posters and work out some vancouvery things ;)
later days

do you ever wonder..

how no matter what you do, some things always seem catch back up with you. or maybe it's more, that u may think you've changed but when you really look at yourself you aren't entirely certain if you have.
i dunno, maybe i'm babbling again, and that wouldn't at all surprise me. but although i know i've changed, everything around me still seems the same. as though the world froze as i wandered along. but what's weird is that this freezing didn't seem to e/affect (whichever) everyone. i know of one who's trundled this path with me, and we seem to see things the same, or at least we can depend on each other for a swift "wap up side the head" when we seem to sit on the ground again.
maybe it's sorta like the frost giants, they've whispered everyone else into sleep, convincing them that in rest they will find warmth, when all it leads to is being frozen.
yep i'm definatly babbling
i think i should go to bed, or at least stop reading fantasy novels about vikings and frost giants. :D
later days
n
ps to quote the fabu cartoon again "There are trains leaving for reality every 30 minutes" unfortunatly i've never been good with time ;)

blah blah blah blah

so i was gonna post some lyrics, but i was too lazy to go hunting for the weeping tile song i'd heard but couldn't remember the title of. oddly enough i did learn that Sarah Harmer used to be the lead singer for weeping tile. too funky. anyways.
Victoria is nice, i'm still jobless, and i have yet to buy my ticket back for grad or book a room in the hostel. i really gotta do that tonight or i'll never get anywhere.
anyways.
that's it for me
ttfn
n

Baxter Rocks!

Love again

I heard a rumor from a friend
And another one said
It was impossible to push your feelings away

I heard it took a lifetime
For someone to forget a love
But she did yes she did forget it
At last

I need a friend
I need you
I need a friend
I need you

I need a friend to take me home again
I need you to make it true

They said it could be better
If I let my love be a part of me
To let in, to be brave without games
Or lies

But what if everything that I give to you
Make you scared, make you leave will I ever dare to
Love again

I need a friend
I need you
I need a friend
I need you

I need a friend to take me home again
I need you to make it true

I need a friend
I need you
I need a friend
I need you
I need a friend
I need you

So i'm in a listening to music mood and well posting what i'm listening to. call me strange but it makes me feel better.

here's another edit
Foo Fighters Rock
Best Of You


I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break
Holdin' you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I've got another confession my friend
I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

i'm not sure if it's worth reading anything into these or if it's just that my play list is following some theme for some unknown reason. there are something like 300 songs in it and not all of them are this depressing but these are the ones that are popping up.
patterns always the weirdest patterns.

back to Canada

Well it appears i'm heading back to canada. prolly sooner rather then later but who knows. i'm hoping to be able to stay for grad, but that depends on money. blargh! money sucks.
So i'm hunting for flights home, not going super well. Air Transat doesn't fly after like the 12th or something of october. but i could be remembering that wrong. i know they don't fly btwn october and may to here. so GRRRR! to them.
Fly zoom still functions thankfully, but only on certain days. whc/ sucks as well. but if i try a regular airline the cost in like 5x as much. GAHHH!!
i thought airlines were there to serve ppl not the other way around.
And hell if the stupid funding thing had been resolved earlier then maybe i coulda gone to canada and then just come back for grad. that woulda prolly been cheaper then waiting around here.
or i coulda traveled a bit. taken a break from stuff. but no.
anyways. as u can prolly tell i'm a little miffed.
so here's some music so u don't have to read me whingeing <--- brit word similer to whining
Hear Me Out by Frou Frou

I join the queue on your answerphone
And all I am is holding breath
Just pick up I know you're there
Can't you hear I'm not myself

Oh go ahead and lie to me
You could say anything
Small talk will be just fine
Your voice is everything
We owe it to love
And it all depends on you

So listen up
This sun hasn't set
I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling
Just hear me out, I'm not over you yet
It's love on the line can you handle it

So how do I do normal
A smile I fake
The permanent wave of
Cue-cards and fix-it kits
Can't you tell I'm not myself

I'm a slow motion accident
Lost in coffee rings and fingerprints
I don't wanna feel anything
But I do
And it all comes back to you

So listen up
This sun hasn't set
I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling
Just hear me out, I'm not over you yet
It's love on the line can you handle it

So listen up
Look at me straight
Just hear me out
Don't make me wait
I'm not myself
I can't take this
Love's on the line
Is that your final answer

I join the queue on your answerphone
And all I am is holding breath
Just pick up I know you're there

So listen up
This sun hasn't set
I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling
Just hear me out, I'm not over you yet
It's love on the line can you handle it

So listen up
This sun hasn't set
I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling
Just hear me out, I'm not over you
It's love on the line can you handle it

So listen up
This sun hasn't set
I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling
Just hear me out, I'm not over you
It's love on the line can you handle it

it was the first song up in the list, anyways good song gotta love frou frou
hmm who else

James Blunt one very nice looking boy who happens to sing quite well too
Out Of My Mind"

Judging by the look on the organ-grinder,
He'll judge me by the fact that my face don't fit.
It's touching that the monkey sits on my shoulder.
He's waiting for the day when he gets me,
But I don't need no alibi - I'm a puppet on a string.
I just need this stage to be seen.
We all need a pantomime to remind us what is real.
Hold my eye and know what it means.

I'm out of my mind.

Judging by the look on the organ-grinder,
He'll judge me by the fact that my face don't fit.
It's touching that the monkey sits on my shoulder.
He's waiting for the day when he gets me,
But I won't be your concubine - I'm a puppet not a whore.
I just need this stage to be seen.
Will you be a friend of mine to remind me what is real?
Hold my heart and see that it bleeds.

I'm out of my mind.

Television by Baxter

I wish I had
Seen you in front of your T.V set
I wish I'd seen you
When you blew up
What seemed to be the whole world to you
I wish I woke up
When you were sad
I wish I had
Seen you in front of your T.V set

All alone in your room
You blew up your television
The whole world to you
And less of you is left

On your own in your room
You blew up your television
The whole world to you
And less of you is left

I wish I had
Seen you in front of your T.V set
I wish I'd seen you
When you blew up
What seemed to be the whole world to you

All alone in your room
You blew up your television
The whole world to you
And less of you is left

On your own in your room
You blew up your television
The whole world to you
And less of you is left

I wish I could take you outside and
I wish I saw the rest of you here

I wish I could take you outside and
I wish I saw the rest of you here

On your own in your room
You blew up your television
The whole world to you
And less of you is left

I wish I could take you outside and
I wish I saw the rest of you here ....

So that's it for me and music, otherwise i'll just start listing my playlist.

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EDIT: well i've changed it back so anyone can post but now they have to fill in a confirmation word. So FAMILY (hint hint, nudge nudge that means U) can post but advertisers can't. WOOHOO! i'd better see some family posting now that i've gone to all that trouble
i couldn't think of a title so i didn't bother well other then the cheezey emoticon bases.
so what's new and exciting. pretty much nothing. although my new roomie at the eurohostel is quite nice, she's from Denmark. Man i've met a wide variety of ppl living there.
the other night was a lady who works for the UN and b/c her flight was so early in the morning it was cheaper just to stay at the hostel then bother with a hotel. i was drawing on my comp and she saw some of my dragons and such and thought i should contact some card company and get them published, or submit them to the UN card making ppl for them to publish to get my name out there in the art world. gotta say i was shocked to hear that., my stuff is ok, but not what i'd consider publishing stuff. but apparently the fanciful stuff is what they like and the stuff i do'd make great kids cards. too strange. i'll have to look into that when i have more time.
hmm other then that i'm hunting for a job still, i've put one of my bags in jenni's storage closet and i'm heading to aberdeen on friday. hopefully i'll hear back from hostel booking soon.
anyways not much else on. still job hunting/phd funding hunting.
laterdays
n